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我討厭星期五

因為時間的問題很久沒有看書﹐我看書真的看得太慢。我喜歡這本書因為它描述到愛情是多麼恐怖。因為愛情﹐女主角願意放棄一切﹐但因為太愛令她失去她的至愛。而男主角就是一個永遠忘記不到舊女朋友的人。女主角就辛辛苦苦活在他舊女朋友的影子下﹐真可憐。“世上最遙遠的距離，不是生與死的距離，不是天各一方，而是我就站在你面前，你卻不知道我愛你。”但我更喜歡的一句是“失望，有時候也是一種幸福，因為有所期待，所以才會失望，因為有愛， 才會有期待，所以縱使失望，也是一種幸福，雖然這種幸福有點痛。”如果我不愛你就不會對你有期待吧。

(在朋友的blog看見這篇文章)

不是因為害怕愛無法持續，所以在最愛的那一刻分手；不是因為他(她)是你的最愛，老天爺忌妒你才把他(她)奪走；「最愛的人不會在一起」是因為他(她)沒有跟你在一起，所以成為你的最愛。就像你某天逛街突然看到一件TOMMY的外套，你在當時有很多顧慮所以沒把它買下來，回家之後就一直對它念念不忘，想著哪天要去把它買回來，結果當你準備好要去買它了，卻發現它已經賣完了，而且你找遍全省都沒貨了，你就開始悔恨自己幹嘛不當時就買下它，你就開始一輩子對它念念不忘，對別人說你曾有件「最愛」的TOMMY家外套可是你卻錯過它。如果在第一時間你就買下它的話，它現在還會是你的最愛嗎？或許它就會像其他掛在你衣架上的外套一樣，它們被你掛在那兒，然後你繼續在外面尋找你的「最愛」。為什麼「最愛的人不會在一起」？因為你沒有擁有他(她)，不論是你主動放手或者是他(她)離去，你都沒有擁有他(她)，你不斷的在尋找一個像他(她)的，或許是他(她)的代替品，但你發現哪兒都找不到，於是你始終悔恨，始終對他(她)念念不忘，始終覺得他(她)就是你「最愛」的那個。失去的時候才想到要追尋，離去的時候才懂得要珍惜， 我只能說，或許人就是犯賤吧！不要只把焦點鎖在對方的缺點，誰不會犯錯呢？畢竟沒有人是聖人啊！一直去在意你身邊那個人的缺點， 而忽略他(她)的優點，一直在介意他做不到的一些事情， 而沒看到他(她)為你做的那些事情，跟你在一起的，永遠都不會是你的最愛。

中午同幾個同事食飯~有兩個“長輩”超搞笑~但我真係有聽佢地講野~可能佢地講d野係搞笑d但都有意思~點講佢地都係過來人~有句我聽完係特別心刻~“如果佢真係中意你﹐佢一定會令你安心”~近日都有幾個同事同我講關於感情既事情~但講到尾都係哥句~“你自己感覺到…”~乜野係感覺﹖~另外我發現原來拍緊拖真係有好多野要避免~不過係應份要去做~例如同異性既互動~其實真係好容易犯錯~小d耐力都吾得~不過有時d野係預定~都係個句~係你就係你~吾係你既就做乜都無用~男女關係真係太麻煩~我發現我真係吾係一個好既女朋友~而最大原因係我都吾知自己想點~不過無野係完美既

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Because of school this week, I feel like I have no time left for anything else.  There’s so much I wanna do, like reading and re-starting my exercise habit.  I am really looking forward to next week when school is over.  I wanna see how things will be.  However, I have decided to take an accounting course, so starting from Feb, I will have class on Wednesday & Saturday night.  This will last for 8 months, which seems like such a long time.  I am hoping to write my LCC Level 2 exam in November.  I don’t know if this is useful, but I really wanna take another course and fill up my time.  I guess I don’t really like going home here and there’s not much to do, so it’s better to get more titles and certifications.

我一路對港產片都沒有什麼期望~不過這套還可以~只小有地方真係搞笑~睇完想打麻雀:P

等 衛蘭

等一束永未來的花　等一堆漂亮的大話
等親訪我家　等好友話你也　不差
等肯跟我漫遊風沙　仍然期待你講實話
虔誠地愛我　我等不到的　消失如流沙

＊如果　期待得到結果
　願意因你著魔　曾受的苦值得恭賀
　我恨我　被動期盼也太傻
　耐心啃苦果　是為著你改變麼

　期待畢竟太多　為了等到甚麼
　難道你　能自己自動的改過
　你一再犯錯　承受等的苦楚　問我等到甚麼＊

常期待你用力的撫摸　便讓我理解戀愛得瘋魔
如果真的愛我　歷盡甚麼都可

生命裡四大重要因素~家庭﹐健康﹐感情﹐工作~同時出錯~令我不知所措~工作問題我可以吾理因為這個對我吾重要~健康問題吾係大問題因為好快會好~感情問題我選擇去面對因為想解決~想解決係因為我重視同吾想失去~家庭問題我好擔心~阿媽現在做緊手術~而我不能在她身邊~其他人會同我講吾洗擔心會無事~其實佢地吾明問題吾係哥到~問題係佢害怕佢有危險佢需要親人但我偏偏就係地球既另一邊~我有一種不孝既感覺同覺得自己好無用~阿媽快六十歲但都要辛苦番工因為個女無本事養佢~吾知我幾時先會有成功既一日

今日病左~一年一度既腸胃炎~上次去鏡湖就係一年前~不過今次好D~無發燒~只係肚瀉左好多次同嘔左三次~個肚不停咁講土語~GILIGULU~不過就當清腸胃同減肥~

另外就係擔心我媽~覺得有點無助~吾知有乜野可以幫到佢~只可以擔心同祈禱~媽媽你一定要無事 T_T

生病就是人生既一部份吧…

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聽到阿媽的哭聲令到我有一種無法形容的悲傷感~我發現阿爸阿媽真係老了~我回來澳門是不是一件錯誤的決定~其實真的好怕阿媽有事

Feeling totally drained today.  I guess the good part of my job is that I can just sit there, go on MSN and type blog, when I don’t feel like working.  I guess that’s most of the time.  Right now, I have a wait and see attitude, things should be clear within 3-6 months.

Talking to my dad yesterday and once again sensed some indirect complain about my endless vacations.  Can’t imagine myself surviving here without an upcoming vacation plan, something to look forward to.  He doesn’t understand why I am not saving much money here, since my expenses are so low.  I did a simple calculation for him.  Almost 50% of my earnings so far went to my master’s tuition, 10% went to him, 10% went to my Europe trip and 10% went to my Toronto trip.  This leaves me a limited amount for my other trips and daily spending.  Honestly, I didn’t spend everything, but really need my savings to multiply at a faster pace in order for me to achieve my plans.  However, I will not sacrifice my vacations for it.

Next trip is 80% fixed, to Kuala Lumpur with my sis in March.  Then the following trip is 90% fixed, to Taipei with friends in April on Easter weekend.  So looking forward to them.

Can see myself being busy in the coming weeks/months.  First school will be starting on the 20th to 26th and then January will be over.  First 2 weeks of February will be alright and then my sis will be back on the 14th.  Then it will be CNY with all the family visits.  Will be in HK on the 24th to 25 th, and that’s February.  March will start with my KL trip, probably from the 2nd to the 6th.  After that, I need to find a day to go to Disney before my sis leaves on the 22nd.  Obviously, there’s work at the same time and I need to work on my assignment.  Seems like the next 2 months will fly by before I know it.  However, I am at a stage where I hope time flies, so really wanna keep myself busy.  I found myself being too lazy lately.  Should find a course to take.  Hope all this will materialize.

However, with time going by so quickly means I will soon be 27.  I never envisioned life being as is when I am 27.  This is scaring me.  With people repeatedly telling me I look young, I still need to accept the fact that I will soon be 27.  What have I accomplished in 27 years of living?  Nothing significant that I would like to point out.  If by 30 and my monthly income does not increase by at least 60% and I still haven’t bought a house and I haven’t completed my master degree, I mind as well kill myself.  I think these are things that can be easily achieved, but it is already far below my expectation.  At the end, all I hope is that I can live a comfortable life and be with the people I love.